I don’t usually like to vent on my blog but sometimes I just need to be able to put my thoughts out there and let the chips fall where they may. I’m starting to hate work; and I hate that about myself.
I seem to have been shafted from full bar staff to cleaning only staff in the two months I’ve been working there. My hours have been cut from 20+ to 16 and as of today to 11 hours per week. I’ve been slowly dropped from working 3 afternoon/evening shifts to working 1 evening shift to no evening shifts and my morning shifts have dropped 2 hours from my normal working hours of 10 am to 2 pm to 10 am to 12 pm with the only exception being Friday’s finishing at 1 pm due to the roast lunch service. Although we’ll see how long that lasts.
And it’s frustrating. I have no idea what to do about it. No matter how hard I work my butt off during my shifts it isn’t good enough for my boss. According to her – I’m not proactive enough, I don’t bring in the customers, the customers don’t like me (which is weird because they seem perfectly happy to see me when I serve them). I can have worked until I drop but she still finds things to nitpick and tell me off for even if she doesn’t tell off the other staff member responsible for the same task.
Today for example, I got bollocked out because there were still two empty kegs in the chiller room from the evening before that hadn’t been put in the storage room where empties are kept. But one, why didn’t last night’s shift worker put them out? And two, nobody in the two months I’ve been working there has bothered to show me how to identify an empty keg from a full one. OK, I guess not having a lid on and not being connected to the pipes might be a big clue but since no one bothered to point it out to me previously, how was I expected to know until now? Now that I do I will look out for the empties and remove them when I come across them but it still doesn’t negate the fact that there was a staff member on last night who could have done the same thing but won’t get that bollocking because she’s the boss’s favourite.
My boss still plays favourites and I’m not it. And it’s terribly obvious to everyone. Somehow this other staff member is brilliant at bringing in the customers but when I ask how the evening has gone when she’s on? The place was dead. If she’s so great at bringing in the customers why is the place still dead on her shift? How exactly is she bringing in the customers?
Right now I am feeling extremely emotional and annoyed about the whole situation but I don’t know what to do about it. I feel like the only reason she’s bothering to keep me on is that I actually do a good job of keeping the place clean and tidy despite all her nitpicking. I hate the thought of quitting because despite my boss I actually do enjoy getting out of the house and earning an income as little as it is. But I’m so tempted to look for another job instead. I just don’t know if the time away from my family is even worth the crap that the boss brings to the table to an otherwise OK job.
What would you do?